The Runaway Bride
For years my girlfriends called me the runaway bride.
I’d be in a relationship. It would get serious. We’d talk marriage. I’d get close to taking the plunge, and then inevitably instead… I’d run.
I’d runaway. End the relationship. Often breaking their hearts.
At the time I wasn’t sure why I did this. I wanted to be married. I wanted to be loved. But whenever the topic came up in a relationship, and the conversation and action steps started to move in that direction, I’d completely freak out!
Maybe I was afraid I’d mess things up again. Maybe I felt like it was impossible for someone to love me over the long haul. Whatever the reason was, it was a horrible habit to have.
It persisted even after my salvation. The subconscious source of this tendency was obviously grasping tightly onto me, refusing to let go.
At one point I decided it would be best to remain single for awhile. I had no intentions of dating anyone, and so it was a complete surprise when I found myself starting to have feelings for an old friend.
Over the four years of our friendship his feelings and desire to date me was unable to be concealed. Anytime he came within ten feet of me his face would redden right up. And although I thought it was adorable, and I was very fond of him as a friend, I would have never in a million years suspect I’d ever fall for him… and yet that is exactly what I did.
I fell hard and fast! And for the first time in my life I just knew… I knew he was the one.
It wasn’t very long before he popped the big question and proposed. On one beautiful Spring evening in the park, lights blew out for blocks around, stars flew across the sky, and in a moment of all God’s beauty and majesty… I said “YES!”
But unfortunately old tendencies don’t disappear so easily, and although I loved him very much, and knew in my heart he was the one… I still completely freaked out!
In the past when this happened, it tended to get ugly pretty quick. Their harsh words mixed with guilt trips just gave me more fuel to run faster from them. But this time, I was not prepared for his response.
Instead of lashing out at me, he very sweetly told me to take all the time I needed, and that he wasn’t going anywhere. He said he had been in love with me and waited four years to date me, and that he would wait however long it takes to make me his bride.
And with those simple loved-soaked words, it broke. The stronghold that grasped onto me so tightly finally broke loose. I realized in that moment not only did he love me, he had loved me long before I ever returned the affection. He loved me when I had no interest in him. He loved me at my worst and most broken. He loved me when I pushed him away. He had loved me first, and somehow with that realization I knew he would love me always.
To put it very plainly, he loved me like Christ loves the church.
Because that is exactly what Jesus does. He loves us long before we ever return His affection. He loves us when we have no interest in Him. He loves us at our worst and when we are most broken. He loves us when we reject Him and push Him away. He loved us first, and He will wait as long as it takes to make us His bride.
We can continue to try all we want to run away, but there is no place we can run His love won’t find us.
“Where can I flee from your spirit? Or where will I run from your presence?” Psalm 139:7
How about you? Are you being a runaway bride? Are you running from the Bridegroom who is the genuine lover of your soul? Has fear, hurt, or confusion caused you to attempt to flee from His great love?
Stop running my dear, sweet sisters. He is a groom you can trust. He will never leave you nor forsake you. He has loved you with an everlasting love that knows no end, never tires or grows weary, never lessens or fades away.
It’s a love that breaks strongholds and sets you free.
About Diane Swan :
Diane Swan is a credential minister, professional Christian counselor, speaker and blogger who is passionate about using her God given gifts to assist ladies in living victorious lives in Christ. She enjoys sharing true life messages that relate to the complex lives of every day women and leaves them feeling equipped to be more than conquerors in all their battles. Diane and her husband Todd are the founders of Seven Swans Ministries, an organization devoted to living out the gifts of the Spirit by offering a unique array of services to encourage, edify and expand God’s kingdom. Diane can also be found online at www.sevenswansministries.org.